Mother Superior Jumped The Gun

It's been a month..
kinda a long time I guess. I mean, i haven't even remembered to get on in this long. oh well i guess. this blog is kinda nearing the end. I mean, I'll keep it around I guess, but there's kinda no point anymore. I don't have those bottled up feelings or anyone who actually follows what i say, so what ever. Shit I sound mopey and obnoxious, and I hate it when people sound like that lol. Like, Hey, i'm here to bum your mood and be annoying in general. listen to me!!! ugh. disgusting. in so many ways.

at least there's camp soon, and then highschool. wow. i'm a fuckin freshman yo. I started blogging in 6th grade, back when I was a little self-centered emo kid. I mean, I was a poser if there ever was one. I have nothing against the whole emo/goth group. whatever, be who you want to be, but that's just not for me these days. I remember my first blog was more or less a diary, filled with rants and bad poetry. These days, it's like, the occaisional update on my life and stuff like that. 6th grade was just me being a nerdy little "emo" and then 7th grade was me being even more "emo" and just hating everything and everyone and then 8th grade was like redemption time and I was all social and happy. I loved 8th grade. I changed so much. It was almost all for the better, too, which was kind of nice. I'm happier with myself and life in general now. I know who I am.

I feel like this summer has been one of the best ones yet. I've been hanging with friends and watching TV and doing what I want. I go to Pearl Street like once a week and have started to befriend hobos =) when camp starts, i'll probably go way more then i do now cuz i'll be close already. I love boulder. it's so much more fun then here. Here is so boring, there are like no interesting things to do aside from walk around and eat and go to our crappy little mall. I wish i lived in boulder. way more guys =)

speaking of guys, i'm getting seriously sick of them. either they're airheads who want sex and a pretty chick on their arm to show off to their friends, or they want to get like married and have a humongous long, serious, clingy relationship. the only person i've found who is relaxed as i am about relationships is my lovely wife, and we allow eachother to see other people. lol. i've gone through about 4 boys this summer. only 2 were actually official, like We are dating now. but jeez, I'm gonna give up!! guys suck. maybe i should switch to girls. whatever i'm not gay. i'm not straight. i'm not bi or whatever. i'm gonna love who i love regardless of gender. love has no gender. (and i'm a fuckin poet!)

summer gives you time to think, and that's why i love it so much. I can just think and think and think and it's all chill.