Never the First

I have recently noticed that I am never the first. I don't mean like competitions, I mean when people think of friends that they'd go to for certain advice or whatever. I may be one of the first few, but I'm never first. Everyone always has some one better, if only by a little bit. I don't really mind, I just kinda noticed that I'm not the first person in someone's mind when they wake up. I'm not the face that someone imagines first when you're playing truth or dare and you get asked about who you are secretly in love with. It doesn't relly matter, and there's nothing I can do about it, I'm just noticing. I honestly don't mind. Honest honestly, not just saying honestly to mask the fact that I do care. I mean, it makes me feel warm when someone says they thought of me, but I guess that's just being self centered. Maybe that's why I'm so self centered, because I'm used to not being thought about. If I think about myself then no one else will have to. hahaha, here I go again...