OK. I have decided to lighten up ove break. I have been steadily slipping into this black abyss of over dramatic depression and attention-craving and i am stopping. RIGHT NOW. So now I'm going to talk about happy stuff.
I saw the movie YesMan with Lily yesterday. It was a really good movie. and I want a fucking seahorse hat!! Those were amazing!! Just see the movie.
Anyway, yesterday was a good day. I felt very superficial. I have figured out that feeling pretty on the outside helps me feel pretty on the inside. And I felt very pretty yesterday. I can't help my obsession with image. honestly, I can't. i want to look good, cuz if i look good i feel good. I know it's really shallow, but you have to be shallow before you can be deep, right? I mean I'm not some bubbleheaded plastic, talk to me. I have a brain. I can psycho-analyze people after about 2 conversations with them. ((with a few exeptions, coughcoughANDYcoughcough. Still can't figure you out, sweetie [= )) Anyway, yestreday i felt like a ballerina. beautiful and talented and all that stuff. Idk, i guess feeling shallow for a day just feels good every once in a while.
But today I am not leaving the house. I am not going to straighten my hair or change out of my too-big pj pants and plank white tank top. I am going to just sit around the house and be deep today. I have decided that I have to make up for all the thinking i didn't do yesterday. =] I am contemplating writing a novel, but I always get bored half way through and never finish. out of ten stories I've started, only two of them have endings. ((btw, i'd be happy to email you one if you want)) but i just have all these words in my head and I need to get them out. maybe i'll just write one of those diary format stories, with random shit in it. it'll tell a story, a simple story, but have lots of sweet writing. idk. Need random inspiration!! maybe i will leave the house today... i suddenly feel all artistic...
speaking of art! I have recently started drawing in a new style. if i ever get famous, my drawings of fabric will be classic. fabric is like, my signatue thing. recently i've been drawing dead girls in pretty victorian-era dresses.
I have a new set of goals for my self, since i have acheived the ones i set for last year.
I feel very content, i am gorging my self on cookie dough. yay.
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heh, yeah, I'm not sure who COULD figure me out. ;-)
ooh! ooh! tip for not getting bored in the middle! just write what you would read. And if the story strays from that, do whatever you can to get that feeling of enjoyment back. Even if it doesn't make any particular sense--there's always room to edit later. :P
and yay! cookie dough!
Mouse.. warning u right now...
my girlfriend! *growls* *wrestling stance*
Sorry... I'm over protective.
I figured you out, andy! It took me three years, but I did!!! Somewhat... a little bit.
wait... girlfriend?? you two are back together???? omg yay!!!! cuteeee!
Well, we have a contract. :P Ask tiz for the specifics.
*argh*
*headdesk*
Ask Andy. she's the one who made it.
XD
explain!!
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