the sun will set for you.

I've been feeling very music inspired lately. mainly cuz music is the only noise i can stand without feeling like i want to run away in tears and hide in my bed and hug my blankets close and tell my problems to winnie the pooh. i don't know what my problem is lately. nothing at all interesting has hapened. i know that tomorrow will be interesting. i know that saturday will be interesting. but so far nothing is interesting. school sucks as usual and home is just home. but every noise i hear makes me want to slit my wrists or swallow pills or something. i don't know why. people chewing, the sound of the keyboard as i type, i don't even know. talking, whispering. everything makes me want to hide away forever. i want to sound-proof my room. i need quiet. all this nois eis making e crazy. i just want to run away and draw pictures and eat cake and snuggle under my blankets and watch dr. who. it is freezing outside. it is too tight inside. i need air. my air. no one elses. but music is like my little vice. the only thing i can hear without wanting to die. i need a break.