Fuck man, how the time flies.
It's August already. 2 weeks of camp and only 1 to go. Summer went poof-gone. And I'm in a sticky situation. I have been asked out by 2 guys, both live a good distance away, and I have been romantical with both before. But I've changed and they changed and they both want to give it another shot. The only problem is, they both asked me on the same day. And I don't know which one to choose. I'm not going to cheat and choose both because that's not only cruel but will come back to bite me. So its decision time.
I'm thinking maybe I'll just choose neither of them. But they're both claiming to have all of these big, serious feelings for me and I dont want to be mean or crush their hopes. But I feel like I have to. To be honest, I'd really rather just be friends with both of them. Ugh!!!
I feel like Hamlet, my indecision and procrastination to act will be my downfall. Ugh!!!!!!
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Mother Superior Jumped The Gun
It's been a month..
kinda a long time I guess. I mean, i haven't even remembered to get on in this long. oh well i guess. this blog is kinda nearing the end. I mean, I'll keep it around I guess, but there's kinda no point anymore. I don't have those bottled up feelings or anyone who actually follows what i say, so what ever. Shit I sound mopey and obnoxious, and I hate it when people sound like that lol. Like, Hey, i'm here to bum your mood and be annoying in general. listen to me!!! ugh. disgusting. in so many ways.
at least there's camp soon, and then highschool. wow. i'm a fuckin freshman yo. I started blogging in 6th grade, back when I was a little self-centered emo kid. I mean, I was a poser if there ever was one. I have nothing against the whole emo/goth group. whatever, be who you want to be, but that's just not for me these days. I remember my first blog was more or less a diary, filled with rants and bad poetry. These days, it's like, the occaisional update on my life and stuff like that. 6th grade was just me being a nerdy little "emo" and then 7th grade was me being even more "emo" and just hating everything and everyone and then 8th grade was like redemption time and I was all social and happy. I loved 8th grade. I changed so much. It was almost all for the better, too, which was kind of nice. I'm happier with myself and life in general now. I know who I am.
I feel like this summer has been one of the best ones yet. I've been hanging with friends and watching TV and doing what I want. I go to Pearl Street like once a week and have started to befriend hobos =) when camp starts, i'll probably go way more then i do now cuz i'll be close already. I love boulder. it's so much more fun then here. Here is so boring, there are like no interesting things to do aside from walk around and eat and go to our crappy little mall. I wish i lived in boulder. way more guys =)
speaking of guys, i'm getting seriously sick of them. either they're airheads who want sex and a pretty chick on their arm to show off to their friends, or they want to get like married and have a humongous long, serious, clingy relationship. the only person i've found who is relaxed as i am about relationships is my lovely wife, and we allow eachother to see other people. lol. i've gone through about 4 boys this summer. only 2 were actually official, like We are dating now. but jeez, I'm gonna give up!! guys suck. maybe i should switch to girls. whatever i'm not gay. i'm not straight. i'm not bi or whatever. i'm gonna love who i love regardless of gender. love has no gender. (and i'm a fuckin poet!)
summer gives you time to think, and that's why i love it so much. I can just think and think and think and it's all chill.
kinda a long time I guess. I mean, i haven't even remembered to get on in this long. oh well i guess. this blog is kinda nearing the end. I mean, I'll keep it around I guess, but there's kinda no point anymore. I don't have those bottled up feelings or anyone who actually follows what i say, so what ever. Shit I sound mopey and obnoxious, and I hate it when people sound like that lol. Like, Hey, i'm here to bum your mood and be annoying in general. listen to me!!! ugh. disgusting. in so many ways.
at least there's camp soon, and then highschool. wow. i'm a fuckin freshman yo. I started blogging in 6th grade, back when I was a little self-centered emo kid. I mean, I was a poser if there ever was one. I have nothing against the whole emo/goth group. whatever, be who you want to be, but that's just not for me these days. I remember my first blog was more or less a diary, filled with rants and bad poetry. These days, it's like, the occaisional update on my life and stuff like that. 6th grade was just me being a nerdy little "emo" and then 7th grade was me being even more "emo" and just hating everything and everyone and then 8th grade was like redemption time and I was all social and happy. I loved 8th grade. I changed so much. It was almost all for the better, too, which was kind of nice. I'm happier with myself and life in general now. I know who I am.
I feel like this summer has been one of the best ones yet. I've been hanging with friends and watching TV and doing what I want. I go to Pearl Street like once a week and have started to befriend hobos =) when camp starts, i'll probably go way more then i do now cuz i'll be close already. I love boulder. it's so much more fun then here. Here is so boring, there are like no interesting things to do aside from walk around and eat and go to our crappy little mall. I wish i lived in boulder. way more guys =)
speaking of guys, i'm getting seriously sick of them. either they're airheads who want sex and a pretty chick on their arm to show off to their friends, or they want to get like married and have a humongous long, serious, clingy relationship. the only person i've found who is relaxed as i am about relationships is my lovely wife, and we allow eachother to see other people. lol. i've gone through about 4 boys this summer. only 2 were actually official, like We are dating now. but jeez, I'm gonna give up!! guys suck. maybe i should switch to girls. whatever i'm not gay. i'm not straight. i'm not bi or whatever. i'm gonna love who i love regardless of gender. love has no gender. (and i'm a fuckin poet!)
summer gives you time to think, and that's why i love it so much. I can just think and think and think and it's all chill.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
summerrr
its summer.
i have been hanging out with people and staying up until 6am and shopping and watching movies and drawing tons of pictures.
so far, good summer.
i have been hanging out with people and staying up until 6am and shopping and watching movies and drawing tons of pictures.
so far, good summer.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
iPod answers =]
If everyone says, "everything is well," what do you say?
Suddenly I See - Kt Tunstall
What best describes your personality?
Make Up - Psapp (oh wow..accurate..)
What suits you today?
I Live For The Day - idk it was on a mix my friend made
What is your goal in life?
La Vie Boheme B - RENT
What is your motto?
Lovestoned - Justin Timberlake (wtf?)
What do your friends think of you?
Fences - Paramore
What do you think about often?
I Could Give You A Mirror - Eurythmics (hmmmm.... )
How much is 2 + 2?
Miserable At Best - Mayday Parade
What do you think of your best friends?
Hey There Delilah - Plain White Ts
What do you think of the person you like?
Amazing - Kanye West =]
What is the history of your life?
Do You Really Want To Hurt Me - Culture Club
What do you want to be when you grow up?
Vertebrae By Vertebrae - Björk
What will you do when you meet the person you like?
Rescue Me - Hawthorne Heights (very Dr. Phil lol)
What do your parents think of you?
A Beautiful Life/La Bella Vita - Kiku
What will you dance to in your wedding?
House-Cat - Danielle Dax
What music will play during your funeral?
Bed - J. Holiday (awkward...)
What is your pastime?
The Trees - Rush
What is your biggest secret?
One More Time - Daft Punk
What do you think of your friends?
Sweet Dreams - Eurythmics
What is the worst thing that could happen?
London Bridge - Fergie
How will you die?
Orinoco Flow - Enya
What is the only thing you regret?
Blue Dress - Depeche Mode
What makes you laugh?
Lunatic To Love - The Presidents of the United States
What makes you cry?
Face Down - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Who will you marry one day?
Sexy Love - NeYo =]
What scares you the most?
Haunted - Evanescence
Does anyone like you?
Dazed and Confused - Led Zeppelin (that pretty much sums it up)
If you could go back in time, what would you change?
Rio - Duran Duran (wtf?)
What hurts you now?
Crossfire - Pillar
Suddenly I See - Kt Tunstall
What best describes your personality?
Make Up - Psapp (oh wow..accurate..)
What suits you today?
I Live For The Day - idk it was on a mix my friend made
What is your goal in life?
La Vie Boheme B - RENT
What is your motto?
Lovestoned - Justin Timberlake (wtf?)
What do your friends think of you?
Fences - Paramore
What do you think about often?
I Could Give You A Mirror - Eurythmics (hmmmm.... )
How much is 2 + 2?
Miserable At Best - Mayday Parade
What do you think of your best friends?
Hey There Delilah - Plain White Ts
What do you think of the person you like?
Amazing - Kanye West =]
What is the history of your life?
Do You Really Want To Hurt Me - Culture Club
What do you want to be when you grow up?
Vertebrae By Vertebrae - Björk
What will you do when you meet the person you like?
Rescue Me - Hawthorne Heights (very Dr. Phil lol)
What do your parents think of you?
A Beautiful Life/La Bella Vita - Kiku
What will you dance to in your wedding?
House-Cat - Danielle Dax
What music will play during your funeral?
Bed - J. Holiday (awkward...)
What is your pastime?
The Trees - Rush
What is your biggest secret?
One More Time - Daft Punk
What do you think of your friends?
Sweet Dreams - Eurythmics
What is the worst thing that could happen?
London Bridge - Fergie
How will you die?
Orinoco Flow - Enya
What is the only thing you regret?
Blue Dress - Depeche Mode
What makes you laugh?
Lunatic To Love - The Presidents of the United States
What makes you cry?
Face Down - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Who will you marry one day?
Sexy Love - NeYo =]
What scares you the most?
Haunted - Evanescence
Does anyone like you?
Dazed and Confused - Led Zeppelin (that pretty much sums it up)
If you could go back in time, what would you change?
Rio - Duran Duran (wtf?)
What hurts you now?
Crossfire - Pillar
Thursday, May 21, 2009
end of my schooling for this year
blahhh blahhh last day blahhh
i'm looking forward to summer. i'm gonna miss candice and and carly and pretty much everyone.
i'm looking forward to summer. i'm gonna miss candice and and carly and pretty much everyone.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
mmmk soo GUESS WHAT??
I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
not "IT" like sex or something bahaha
IT like i actually passed the audition. I'm in the master class!!! yay i'm proud.
not "IT" like sex or something bahaha
IT like i actually passed the audition. I'm in the master class!!! yay i'm proud.
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