vandalize my face, please.

i'm in a funk.
i feel creatively stunted, yet in full bloom.
i want to do something drastic, but fun, but i don't know if i want people to look at me and go there's that girl again.
i'm not nervous, but im stressed.
i don't want to sing but i'm so very musical.
i want to fly around my ceiling fan, but i'm just not sure how.
i don't know what to do. I want to be happy with things i just feel so... unsatisfied.

adventures in acting

so i just started an acting class and i feel really stupid cuz everyone else in it is fucking amazing and i'm not that fabulous. Anyway then i started looking at maybe doing csf camp again this summer. i saw a youtube video and started to feel sentimental and stuff. so i think i'm going to do it this year.. but i don't want it to suck like last year...